Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Sickity Sick Sick

Niko is so sick. Yesterday he was a bit cranky with a runny nose. Around dinner he ran a brief, low fever. Then at 2:00 this morning, he woke up crying and screaming in his room. It sounded like he was breathing through a straw. I got the vaporizer going, and Luke gave him a blessing, which was comforting. Then we used Vicks on his chest (he hated it) and Niko crawled in bed with us until he fell asleep.

I listened to him breathe. I thought about the nebulizers and the pneumonia and the treatments that he's had. I curse the medical care in this community. I curse myself for balking at taking him. I dread the tantrums, the fear, the absolutely ballistic freaking out. If you haven't seen Niko in full-blown panic mode, then even your best imagining can't come close. It's like holding a 50 pound nuclear bomb in your arms. His strength becomes super human.

So it's 4:30 am now, and I came out here to type and think. The good news is that Dad is down and visiting, so if we need to make a hospital run, I have a car and a babysitter for Nina. I'm hoping it won't come to that, of course, but I'm prepared. I can do difficult things.

But I have some good news! I made arrangements to do my first book signing! Ever. It'll be in my hometown this August sometime. Every little step that I take will lead me somewhere! So I'll be signing Neverlands and Otherwheres and A Cup of Comfort for Parents of Children with Special Needs. I'm so glad that they suggested that the authors do promo. I never would have done it myself in a million years, and I need to learn how. Also, I received an exciting and positive email concerning "Ray". I wrote about these things at http://www.abrokenlaptop.wordpress.com/.

Okay! Goodnight!


Ketchesons said...

I hope Niko gets better before hG
Amazing about your signing!!! a step closer every time. You are a great example to me.
Best of luck :-)

Janyece said...

I for one am so proud of you!! Will your book signing in CD be while I'm there by chance?

I'm sorry about Niko. I hope he gets better soon! Thank heaven your dad is there. Tell him I said hi! We were up late with crying kids too. They've both been having a hard time sleeping, but neither is acting sick. Not sure what's up... Anyway, I'm also glad to hear you're running again! I am too! (Not impressively but I am. lol) YEA!

Katie Aldrich said...

I'm so sorry little Niko:(. Congrats on the book signing...what will you wear?

Tes said...

I hope the little man feels better soon! Poor guy.

Wooohooo on the book signing, how exciting. I am with Katie what will the author wear!? For sure post a picture with your pen poised.

Noel said...

I too hope that Niko starts feeling better soon.
I will be checking out those books myself. I need some new reading material :) I am very excited for you. Follow your dreams!

Nancy said...

Guess what?! I got A Cup of Comfort from my husband for our anniversary. I flipped through it and read you first! Congrats and well done.