Monday, January 17, 2011

Why Am I Thinking Of The Rolling Stones?

At a time when my heart is breaking?

We were calling the triplets Winkin, Blinken, and Nod, but discovered today that Nod has passed away. It’s funny how you can become so attached to somebody that you haven’t met, but that’s the way of it. While I mourn for the child that we almost had, we’re still excited that we have what seem to be two very energetic twins, and that’s a blessing.

I do believe that things happen for a reason, even if it’s only to teach us strength and empathy. I wish that this wasn’t a lesson that I needed to learn, but that’s where the Stones come in. You can’t always get what you want. I just need to focus on the rest of those uplifting lyrics, and remember how much I believe in hope.

Thank you for your kindness concerning all of this. I’ve been a bit overwhelmed for a few weeks and haven’t been able to respond as personally as I would like to, but please know that you’re very appreciated.

Monday, January 10, 2011


I wrote a post a few weeks ago celebrating our tenth wedding anniversary. I’d been feeling a bit unwell lately, so imagine my darling husband’s surprise when, after our anniversary dinner, I shouted “SURPRISE!” and announced that I’d just discovered that we were having our third child. How wonderful! How unexpected! A surprise indeed.

Then we were robbed ten days later. SURPRISE!

Today’s surprise took place at the first ultrasound. My dear friends, I am not exaggerating in the least when I tell you that my breath was taken away. We saw the baby for the first time. Then, SURPRISE! There’s another baby! Twins! We’re having twins! I couldn’t believe it. Can you believe it?

But since we never do anything halfway, SURPRISE, SURPRISE, there are actually three babies. That’s right. Triplets. Suddenly we will go from two kids to five. I can’t wrap my head around it, yet. Although excited, I don’t think that my heart can take any more surprises. At least for another day or two.

So let me reel for a while. And then we party! Celebrate with me!