Wednesday, August 20, 2008

So. I'm Afraid.

I enrolled Niko in his new school today. He starts kindergarten on Monday, and it's an all day special education class. That's right. All day. It starts at 8:00 and gets out a little after 2:00. I have mixed feelings about this. The first and strongest feeling is "My baby!" He's so little, and that seems so long. Especially since he's been having difficulty at school lately.

Difficulty at school. That's a polite way to put it.

That's my other fear. That's six hours every day that he could be hurt. Not that I think that will happen, but I didn't think that would happen before. I need a game plan. I need to figure out how I can be involved enough that I can watch over Niko, but not become one of those crazy psycho parents. "Hi, I'd like to join the PTA simply to make sure that you're not abusing my little boy. Who wants root beer?"

My understanding is that the investigation should begin this week or next. I am chronically nervous, and can't sleep at night. My faith in these people is...well, almost nonexistent. They have done very little to earn it.

I'm leaving soon to take Niko to the opthomologist for his lazy eye. This will be...yeah. Wish us luck. :P

On a happy note, my humorous horror officially made it through the first round. I was surprised and happy that the editors took the time to drop me an email and let me know, because usually you don't hear back until you're either rejected or have made the final cut. The anthology is called Dark Jesters, and I'm definitely going to pick it up whether or not my piece is included. Because I'm intrigued to see "humorous horror", and the editors are gracious, and courtesy invites courtesy. And I simply love to read, dear heavens, there isn't anything better.

3 comments:

Unknown said...

2 Timothy 1:7

7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

It will all work out! Love you!

Laura Oler said...

Katia started all day kindergarten, too. The bus picks her up at 8:15 and drops her off at 3:45. I was definitely choked up on her first day yesterday, and wondered if maybe I should have driven her to school or should go check on her. And she can tell me what's going on (but usually doesn't). I feel for you with the added layers of stress. I think all of us have anxious feelings sending our little ones off to school.

Katie said...

I'm with you all the way on the the pains of all-day school....I went to volunteer in the kids' classrooms today (a good way to keep tabs under the guise of helping out the teacher:), and I was overwhelmed with the "institutional-ness" in which they are immersed for 6 hours every day. If I could create my own elementary school, every classroom would have a fireplace and a golden retriever!