Tuesday, May 03, 2005

A Painful Rock Bottom

Journal Entry May 18, 2004

Niko looks awful today. Thinning out, this skinny neck with the blue jugular pulsing-- He's pale, his eyes are red, his lips colorless. I genuinely don't think he smiled all day. Clingy, fragile, lethargic. He vomited twice, and it hurts him now, I can tell. Not like his usual daily vomiting. I can see his veins running under the skin of his face. He didn't want to play, just cuddle. Bless these doctors tomorrow with inspiration-- I will do anything to fix this.

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